Hi folks. Today I’ve pretty much not used my phone. Well, I have used my phone, but I’ve decided to just minimize the amount I use my phone. Something that I am very much tired of is having to constantly be distracted by some video or sound from the internet. I’ve decided that I will not allow myself to be distracted like that anymore. This doesn’t mean that I can never use my phone, but I should be able to just do things, like writing this post or cleaning my room, without also being distracted by my phone. I don’t believe that my phone has retarded me in terms of progress, but I do believe that constantly being connected to the internet is a great source of stress, and it’s time for me to just not always be online. I should probably read a book once in a while when I’m not doing something else. I find myself often when I’m online, not really doing anything interesting or useful, other than scrolling around from video to video, and that’s not good. It’s okay and actually helpful to be bored. I do believe that many people in our modern world can’t stand being bored, and that’s not a good idea, not at all. It’s very human to be bored and it’s okay to not always be in some kind of competition: you are allowed to just sit with your own thoughts. I do believe that I, and many people like me, are afraid of their thoughts and that’s not a good place to be, not at all. I guess this applies to me in particular since I’ve had struggles with anxiety back and forth since at least 2021, and that anxiety is always lurking under the surface ready to just attack me if I don’t keep my thoughts in check. At least that’s what it feels like. I guess I need to try to straighten out my mental problems. One reason why I dislike psychiatry is because doctors will not help you solve your mental problems: more often than not psychiatrists will only prescribe medication that don’t actually solve your problems, they just make them temporarily go away and often those medications have bad side effects, such as gaining weight because they make you want to eat more and sometimes you become dependant on them. No, I believe that psychiatric medication probably should be a last resort, especially if you haven’t tried to actually fix the problem. I think I just need to get used to being bored again. I guess when I was younger I used to be bored and boredom made me explore some new corners of the world, but when you can just disconnect from reality by being terminally online, then you never allow yourself to get that opportunity to discover new horizons. I feel that I am also chronically in stress and that probably has to do with the very messy and unorganized way I’ve decided to go about studying. Before I started this education, I wasn’t this stressed out. But it’s sometimes hard to feel rewarded when you’re trying to learn, because it’s hard to gauge what learning actually is, or rather how much I’ve actually learned. So, I’ve decided that I will start to meditate at least once a week. I’ve also bought some incense because I feel that those can help calm me down. So stopping using my phone and being connected to the internet constantly is probably a good start. Yeah, I’ve really allowed the internet to hijack my life, and now it’s up to me to change it. I know that I can change, but I need to just integrate not always using the internet in my routine, because I know that I can pull this off if I know what I want and if I can just do the same thing everyday. So, I’ve decided to not start the day by watching my phone, and I’ve also decided to just not have my phone turned on when I’m eating breakfast and doing everything I’m doing in between that and cleaning my room. I have also decided that I will start to exercise again, and under that exercise I may or may not use my phone, but tomorrow I will try to just not use my phone for a change. I will start to bicycle again, but I do also believe that I should try to work out my muscles, because I lack a lot of muscle strength. I am not interested in bodybuilding or anything like that, but I want to be fit at least once in my life and I’m in that age where I should have a very easy time becoming fit. I don’t quite know how to work out my muscles, but here’s an area where I should rely on the internet in lieu of other sources. But I need a stronger back and a stronger stomach. While I’m not really fat anymore I still need to shred some fat around my liver and gut, because it’s not good to have fat stored in that region. Overall, I have good values from my blood sample, but I don’t like having fat around my belly and liver, it’s just not good for my health. Again, I don’t have that much fat anymore, but it’s still too much for comfort. I guess it’s true that it’s sad for a man to go his entire life without knowing his full potential in terms of how good his body can look. But I don’t care about looking good, because I want to be healthy. I’m not seeking attention and if I do become very fit, I guess that could be a problem, but then again I don’t think I’m going to receive too much attention. I don’t like attention, be it positive or negative, I just want to be left alone. One benefit of being me is that I do not need to concern myself with womenfolk, and that’s something that I can’t say that I miss. LOL! I see many young men on the internet being obsessed with a relationship with a woman, and in all truth I don’t think I could ever live with a woman, or anyone else for that matter. But it’s just such a waste of time and potential to be desperate for a woman. But I guess these people can’t help it and that’s why I feel sad for them. Y’know, you could do a lot more with your life instead of trying to make a woman that isn’t attracted to you attracted to you. While I don’t have much experience with attraction, I guess I can say this: I don’t believe that you need to figure out whether or not someone’s attracted to you, I think you’ll know pretty quickly and while women may be less verbal in how they tell you whether they like you or not, women are still pretty good at making that clear. So why then continue to waste time on that woman when she isn’t into you? But again, I guess these young men are too controlled by their hormones and they may just be oblivious to the lack of interest that many women they are attracted to are trying to show them. I also want to say this about attraction: y’know people can’t help who they are attracted to, so it’s silly and just wrong to try to shame them for not being attracted to you. Are you attracted to every woman, EVERY woman? Probably not, and if you are then great for you, but most women aren’t attracted to most men, that’s just life. And if it’s really true that you are attracted to EVERY woman, then why not date your mother, LOL, or the fat and not so pretty girl? Should it matter who you date since you’re attracted to all of them? I know that I’m fooling around but most people aren’t attracted to you and you are most likely not attracted to most people and that’s okay, attraction is really something you didn’t ask for. Try to view attraction from this perspective: yes you can’t help that you aren’t attracted to that fat and not so pretty girl, but you can also not help that you’re attracted to that pretty girl. You didn’t ask to be attracted to anyone, that just happened to you. But here’s the catch, you are hopefully grown enough to be able to not be completely defined by your hormones. Yes, you are attracted to a lot of women, not because you really want to or because you choose this, but because it just happens to you, and to that extend you’re also a victim: you’re a victim of your hormones and you are also on occasion a victim of women trying to take advantage of your senses. But you don’t have to be a victim, you can choose, I know it’s hard, to not allow your attraction to members of the opposite sex to control and define you. Just because a girl is very attractive doesn’t mean that you should spend all your time trying to court her, especially not if she’s not interested in you. Women are just human beings: they’re not angels that can do no wrong and they’re not evil witches that are trying to destroy your life. Women are also human and they can’t help that you happen to find them attractive, and the same is true when they’re attracted to some guy, they didn’t choose that either. I just think it’s time for people to stop treating attraction as a moral flaw and as something that should define who you are: let attraction happen, you can’t help that, but you don’t have to allow it to control you. Calm down a little bit. I’m done. Signing out.
Reginald Drax – December 8, 2025.
","postedDate":"den 7 december 2025"}