Hi folks. Ah, it’s almost November and I feel not so great. LOL! This time last year I remember that I was euphoric about Africa and I still am but I’m so much more busy these days. I’m trying to learn about differential equations and all of that. But seriously I’m not really doing that much actually. But I’m still stressed. I do need to find a way to structure my life better. I’m not really waking up at 7 a.m. and I just spend too much time doing nothing of importance. It’s time for me to change that. I should probably be waking up at 6 so I have time to clean my room and all that. I’ve actually begun to clean my room before I do anything else. But I need to go to sleep earlier. But it’s definitely autumn outside. There hasn’t been a sunny day for over a week now and yes I know that I wrote that October was pretty good weather wise this year and that was true: most of October was sunny until about a week and change ago. Well, there’s no point in complaining about the weather because it’s not gonna get any better for a long time. But I do actually have time to study maths and electrical circuitry. I think I will not register for all the courses in this second period of the semester, but I’m in a conversation with some people that are going to help me out. I really should get the maths out of the way but I do believe they mentioned that I should learn a lot of electrical analysys, so I will figure out whether I should skip the math course or the second electrical analysis course. Even if I’m slow, that doesn’t mean that I can’t make any progress. As I’ve stated in the past: I allow my emotions to take over far too much and as a result I just don’t get anything done. Linear Algebra shouldn’t be too hard I don’t think. Anyways, on another note: I do think I need to remove my gallbladder because I just have too many issues and as I stated about 4 weeks ago, they did find a stone in my gallbladder so I just want it removed. I’m going to the doctor's office in a couple of weeks. I’ve had too many issues with my gallbladder and I suspect that most of my stomach related issues trace back to my gallbladder. It’s really a horrible little organ but I can’t do much about that. Well, I do believe I read somewhere about a surgeon who successfully removed his own gallbladder. If that’s true I’m very impressed. The idea that you can do surgery on yourself sounds a little bit wacky, but it’s really cool and a little bit disgusting because blood and bodily fluids just disgust me y’know. I’ve always had some kind of phobia against blood. I just can’t stand thinking about blood, and I don’t want to think about it now because I really get numb and weak and I can’t focus and do anything straight. Btw, I believe that my ADHD keeps me up at night. I read somewhere that ADHD can make it very difficult to get to sleep, which would explain why I seem to struggle so much. I had it easier back in July, but do remember that it was easier to actually wake up back then because of the light conditions outside. Now it’s darker and darker, but since they went back to winter/standard time it’s actually one hour lighter in the mornings these days, but it’s raining outside and it’s just horrible and it’s hard to wake up to that. Rain makes me want to go back to sleep, but I’m getting less than 7 hours of sleep every day and that’s really the problem here. I need at least 8 hours of sleep but I have such a hard time changing my routines. I need a schedule and I’m gonna spend some time writing a schedule later and I’m gonna try to follow it and see how far I get. I want to wake up at 7 a.m. because I feel that 7 is a good time to wake up and really I should probably wake up at 6 a.m. because sometimes you really need to wake up at a good time to have the time to actually get anywhere. But I’m just too slow. My problem is that I spend too much time on all the small things that I do each day. I think this goes back to my ADHD. I need a timer that sounds when I am supposed to be finished with something. Actually I have a timer so I should start using it. Anyways, anyways, I’ve been told that the anti-war organization that I joined apparently might be founded by Russia, but I’ve seen no evidence of this. I am a pacifist and I can hear and understand the arguments from the people that believe in rearming the military but I do not agree. I don’t believe that people that believe in a strong military are evil and want to harm people, but I do believe that many of those people tend to value the collective more than the individual because after all, the individual will always be hurt the most by armaments spending and warfare. It’s always the individual civilian and the person forced to fight the war that get hurt in the end. There’s all this talk about the “greater good”, but what about the individual good: should the individual good not matter? The fact is that armaments spending won’t only get out of hand and spiral out of control, it will also completely drown the individual member of society and I just cannot accept this. I also don’t see the greatness in war. There just isn’t anything to be celebrated in war. Yes, I understand that some people make war and that you may have to defend yourself if someone makes war on you, but there has to be better ways of defending yourself against an enemy in war, and if not then I don’t know what to say. What about all the refugees fleeing the war? Should men and women not be allowed to flee the war? Well, many people don’t think so, which just goes to show how quickly this gets out of hand once it’s started: there’s just no end in sight. I’m simply outraged by the conduct of both Russia and Ukraine when it comes to this war. Who is paying for these wars? Well, the young men of Russia and Ukraine are and many future generations. I wish that President Putin could stop this war and could just stop trying to be Stalin 2.0 or some King or Tsar. Mr. President, you’re not the Tsar of Russia, you’re the president of Russia so start acting like it. But that call will be to no avail. Who am I? Well, I’m a member of the human species and I have to coexist with the likes of President Putin and other men who love to make war. And btw, this war is over: Russia has clearly lost the war and there’s no hope ahead for Russia or Putin to actually win this thing anyhow, so just stop it already. Well folks, I’m done for today with this. I'm out. Signing off.
Reginald Drax – October 31, 2025.
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